♥ Mesmorized

Weekend

2012-01-15T23:16:00.001+08:00

I had an awesome weekend!

Yesterday bring zn out to buy her a new cheong sam and a new shoe. Also bought a set of clothes for my nephew. Went over to Aunty Anna house aftermath. Aunty Anna and her 2 kids and their maid miss zn alot. Stayed there for 2 hour and had so much fun!

Went to 112 @ Katong with Sis and Bro Inlaw and the guys. Bring zn to the arcade and she seems to enjoy herself! But when I bring her over to the nanny place, she cried so badly! :(

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2012

2012-01-11T22:19:00.001+08:00

Its a brand new year. A year pass by so fast. I'll be turning double two this year and zn will be turning 2 year old in 9 months time. Thank God that he gave me a priceless gift despite me been so young.

Zn have got 16 tooth now. Her bite is so powerful that my hand actually bleed when she bite. She can now say 姨姨, 弟弟, Daddy and play. As usual, she love to walk so much so much! And she love to go to the playground alot that every single time when I carry her and go off, she will cry so badly.
So now at 15 months old, she knows how to say, Mama, papa, jiejie, korkor, didi, mummy, daddy, open, lo(hello), bye bye, throw, play, bear bear, baby, meow meow, mum mum(eat), orh hor, ball ball, milk milk, pain pain, 姨姨, 没有, 不要, 怕怕, 走走, 美美. Thats all I can remember. It is really amazing to see her learning new skills learning new words.

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2011-12-28T14:03:00.001+08:00

Hi, here to update this space since I'm free. Well my curret job, I must admit I love this job and its this job that motivate me to take nail course and I'm in love with painting nails! But the thing which I hate is the temperature at work. The aircon is always cold everyday that I'm falling sick so often and missing out work so often! Damn, this is not good at all!

On my girl, she's growing so fast! She'll be turning 15 months old next week! Time really fly so fast! She's learning new skills new words quote fast though! She knows how to say words like, throw, open, no more, lo (hello), 走走, 没有, 不要. She loves to walk so much that her stroller have been left untouch ever since her birthday! When she sees a wound on me, she'll ask if its pain pain and when I say yes pain pain, she kiss my wound. She smiles so happily when she sees herself in the camera.

Her christmas gift from Emily yiyi.

Christmas gift for her papa.

Oh. She loves taking my phone and go "lo, papa?" She is always wanting to talk to her papa on the phone! If she dont hear her papa's voice she will throw tantrums!

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All about christmas

2011-12-26T17:24:00.001+08:00

Spend my christmas eve with my baby, bro and gfs. Was an awesome night! Had steamboat over at yiting place. Exchange gift and I love my present alot! :)

Got babyg hello kitties as her christmas present. 6 items inside the wrapper. Glad she like it!

We had an awesome christmas, wht about you? :)

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Updates~

2011-12-11T23:11:00.001+08:00

Hi. Its been sometime since I update this space. Oh yes, that's my nephew! He decided to see the world on 30th Nov. My brave sis brough him to this world without epidural! So proud of her!

So, my babygirl is so grown up now. Oh yes, she have got almost 12 powerful teeth now! She is very 爱美! As usual, still very smiley and sweet! She loves to walk so much! She learn alot of things like waving hi & bye, kiss my cheek, say bear bear, sit when ask to, say milk milk when she wants milk, still many more! Most importantly, she loves eating! And she loves drinking milk too!

Work for me on weekdays so I could only spend time with her on weekends thua, I treasure and cherish my weekends alot with her! Even though she only sees me twice a week, we are still very close! She is so sticky to me that she will even follow me to the ladies! Ah yes, we sleep on the same bed together too! :)

Some cutesy photos of my precious!

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<3

2011-11-03T15:34:00.001+08:00

Hand in hand, we'll walk together <3

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2011-10-06T23:08:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY MY PRECIOUS! ♥♥♥

Its been a year that I've been a mother, enter motherhood. My precious is 1 year old already. This 1 year, honestly speaking, wasn't an easy year.

I'm glad that I didn't listen to some nonsensical stuff and abort zhining away and give her away for adoption. If not I won't have such adorable daughter who always make my day a good want with her sweet smile and cutesy actions. She's the best gift from God, very priceless. This 1 year she grew so much! From a baby to a toddler. She can walked already, witness it with my own eyes yesterday. She loves cats, she'll point to it whenever she sees cats. She knows how to say korkor(big brother). I must say that it is really amazing and a joy to witness her growth. Seeing her learn new things everyday.

Brough her to Peek-a-boo along with Yiting, Sheena, BabyLayna, Amanda, Zhangmin and Weeboon to celebrate zhining's birthday. They bought a cake, and also presents for zhining. Really appreciate all the effort and time put in specially for zhining. It was an awesome day. We took more then 200 photos and it is impossible for me to upload all of it here. So will just upload some. View the rest on my Facebook :)

Thankyou so much!

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Peek-a-boo

2011-10-05T23:25:00.001+08:00

Peek-a-boo on 1st Oct with Sis, Emily, Yan ling & her husband and our babies to celebrate babygirl's advance birthday celebration. Only a few photos here. For more, at my facebook.

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A

2011-09-29T12:48:00.001+08:00

Mommy's precious

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Hi

2011-09-21T18:45:00.001+08:00

Taken during sis's wedding :)

Baby girl is growing new bottom teeth. She can walk two step on her own without support! So looking forward to the day she starts walking though a little scare.

Have started a new job as admin assistant for almost a month. Have gotten use to working there and I've already know everything :) though the pay is not high but for babygirl, I have to save save save!

Anyway, I am so looking forward to Dec for my little nephew's arrival! Sis must be looking forward too! When sis just know its a babyboy, I've already bought some stuff for baby nephew ^^ Didnt know that buying those cutesy stuff can be a joy!

Babygirl is turning 1 year old soon!! Why time fly so fast? I miss her newborn so much!!

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Hi

2011-09-20T22:51:00.001+08:00

I'll update this dead space tmr. With babygirl cutesy photos. Stay tune~

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11 month

2011-09-06T22:31:00.001+08:00

Yay my baby is 11 months old already!! Turning 1 years old in 1 month's time!!

This 11 months wasn't easy for me, a single mother. But thank God I go through it with help of my sister, social worker, friends and most importantly my mommies babes. They are the one constantly giving me encouragement and helping me with whatever help they could give.

This 11 month my baby really grow up and learn so much things. From a baby that cry to communicate to mummbling milk milk when she wants milk. Her hobby is RANSACKING everything she see, haha! But nevertheless, she is still as smiley as ever. Always making my heart melt with her sweet smile!

When she was just 1 day old, omgggg!!

To a big baby ^^

Playing with papa's tattoo

Feeding mama biscuit ^^

To a baby that knows how to stand without support

And she learn this on her own!

Knows how to imitate using phone too!!

Cute?

She'll do this if she wants bao bao(carry)

She loves to pluck black nose like this in the picture and plucking the whisker!

When she got a messy hair

Do she look like a toddler here?

Alright all this shall do for now. Will be back with her cutesy photos :)

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Updates

2011-09-03T15:20:00.001+08:00

Time really pass so fast. My baby grown so much. From a baby to a naughty baby. From a baby who only can just lie down to a baby whose hobby is ransacking things, knows how to say mama, papa, mum mum, wave byebye, hi-5 your hand, stand on her own and so much more. Its really a joy seeing my baby learning new things and growing each day. She brought so much joy to me. Especially her sweet smile which never fail to melt my heart. All this is a happiness that no one can ever give me except my baby. My pillar of strength<3

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Updates

2011-08-20T16:30:00.001+08:00

Sexy?

Searching for food

Stay tuned for more of her cutesy pictures :)

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Hongkong trip

2011-08-09T01:12:00.001+08:00

Went to hongkong on 1st to 6th August with Sis and Bro-inlaw. My first time going overseas. Didnt buy many things but overall kinda enjoy. Just that I miss bbygirl alot, I even brought her chouchou with me, hehe.

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2011-07-28T02:14:00.001+08:00

As promise, cutesy photos of my daughter. She's still as smiley as ever, always doing cutesy actions which never fail to make me smile and laugh. Bbygirl knows how to say mama, papa already ^^ She'll open her hands if she wants to be carry. She knows how to wave byebye, hi-5. She always make my day a good want :)

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sick

2011-07-09T17:30:00.002+08:00

My baby is down with HFMD :(

9 month

2011-07-06T19:44:00.000+08:00

Happy 9 months pld bbygirl <3

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Bbygirl's first word!

2011-06-30T22:03:00.002+08:00

BABY GIRL LOOKED AND ME AND SAID "MAMA, MAMA, MAMA" !!!!

She's 8 months, 3 weeks and 3 days old today! I swear this is the best thing that happen in my life! I'm crying in joy as I type this! :)

Short post

2011-06-27T21:57:00.001+08:00

No pictures of bbygirl for now. Promise to spam lots of cute pictures of her after next weekend!

Bbygirl is now at babysitter place cuz I'm working morning tomorrow. She's growing each day. Blabbering more words now. She loves to eat! She loves to be in standing position. She love to gai gai. Hehehe. I can't wait for her to call me mama! I think I'll go mad if she call me mama.

To be honest, up till today, sometimes I still cannot believe that I have a daughter!

updates

2011-06-18T20:09:00.000+08:00

Bbygirl is growing her 5th tooth:)

Bbygirl is completely back to me, fostering ended. So now when I'm working, she'll be at babysitter place. Found through forum & I must say this lady is really a nice lady. Not only she charge me quite cheap, she also allow bbygirl to stay over when I got work in the morning the next day. And she'll send bbygirl over to my place void deck most of the time! Really is thank God! After work, I'll fetch her home & spend that few hours with her!

Work is fine, back to East point outlet. Everything going smoothly.

4 more months to bbygirl's big 1. Should starting thinking about how to celebrate already.

8 months

2011-06-06T19:30:00.001+08:00

Happy 8 months old, my precious girl!!

Bbygirl's 3rd tooth is out! She can pull herself up & stand, and walk a few steps. She loves standing up & cannot sit still.

Nevertheless, she's still as smiley as before!!

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Life

2011-06-02T22:42:00.001+08:00

As promised, photos of bbygirl! Will be back with more!

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Short post

2011-05-12T01:31:00.000+08:00

Couldn't get to sleep, so.... Came here to update a little! Doubt I have any readers left. Update or not, makes no different. Maybe should just close down this space?

Work today wasn't really good. First time working 10 hours & I nearly fall asleep, prolly because I slept too late last night as I went Summer breeze to drink a little with a friend. Who says being a mom means you can go out relax? As long as not too over!

Starting to find work a hate instead of love. Maybe I will love if I'm transfer to other outlet, working with other stuff who doesn't bring personal anger to work, like as if all of us offended him/her.

Spica phone spoil till too ugly. Repaire fee in total 100plus. Change my mind not to repaire. Too expensive. 100 bucks can buy so many toys for babygirl. Shall just tolerate 2 more months then get a new phone.

Till here! Will be back with updates on my darling instead :)

Mother's Day

2011-05-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all Awesome Mommies out there!

Its my very first Mother's Day in my 21 year of life. Spend my day with my daughter over at Sis & Bro-In-Law's place.

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Yesterday was Sis's wedding! Woke up @ 2.45am to prepare everything. Had so much fun disturbing the Brothers! Sis look so beautiful in her wedding gown & her night wedding gown. Didn't took much photos, was busy with my darling girl.

Till here :)

7th month

2011-05-06T01:53:00.003+08:00

Happy 7 month old, bbygirl! <3<3<3

So fast, its already 7 months since bbygirl's arrival. She's already so big! Makes me miss her newborn times so much!

She made so much new progress!
-Drinking 180ml of milk during day time, 200ml of milk before bed time
-Bed time 8pm, latest 11pm. Sleep all the way till 7am, latest 9am.
-Is always talking her baby language, seems to wana talk to us
-Always turning, flipping around!
-Always lift her butt up on her own & stay at "on all four" position
-Can crawl backwards
-Can walk backwards in her walker
-Loves baby bites alot
-If hold on to something, she tried to stand without us pulling her up
-Love cartoon alot!
-Smiley baby like always
-Smile happily when we say 拍拍手
-Love bathing as usual

Bbygirl like very stick to me! She seems to know I'm her Mommy! Alot of time I walk off from her, she start to cry. And when I go back to her, she stop crying! She doesn't do this to anyone, except me! I love to see her smile! Always make me melt. Really thank God that I've a smiley & adorable daughter which never fail to make me happy just by smiling.

6 October 2011, marks the day I step into motherhood. The day I had my bundle of joy. I'll give her nothing but the best!

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Been long since I updated this space. Been busy with work. Moreover, my spica phone is in repairing. So no photos till I get my spica. Promise to upload all the cutesy photos of bbygirl! Got so many to upload!

Life's still the same. Weekdays I'll be working. A part time job. Weekends, I'll spend my time with my darling girl. Treasure all the time spend with her. But! Hehehe! Next month is June! She'll be back to me, in my care completely! No more fostering, yay! Happymama!

Many ask, why didn't I mention about my daughter's father in this space here. I see no need to. No, her father didn't ran away or irresponsible. He paid all her expenses. He did his part as a father.
Don't sprout nonsense if you don't know anything. TYVM.

As for matters of the heart, nothing change. My status is always Single. I'm still waiting for that special miracle to happen<3

Lens

2011-05-05T20:49:00.001+08:00

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:)

2011-04-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

More @ my facebook ! :)

6 month

2011-04-06T20:57:00.006+08:00

Happy 6 month old, bbygirl♥♥♥

Drinking 150ml of milk in the day & 180ml of milk before bed time

Sleep at 8.30pm, latest 11pm plus & wake up betweenn 7am to 8am plus

Have got 2 bottom tooth

Able to sit without support

Able to drink with training cup on her own

Tried Baby bites & minced pork porridge

Love to roll all over

Love flipping to her tummy

Thats all I could remember :)

Photos

2011-03-24T17:41:00.001+08:00

Photos spam of bbygirl. More @ facebook :)

Seeing bbygirl tmr instead of Saturday! :)

Bbygirl got a tooth alr!

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2011-03-09T20:02:00.001+08:00

Miss bbygirl alot!!

5 Months

2011-03-06T23:07:00.017+08:00

Happy 5 months old bbygirl♥♥♥

Drinking 125ml-150ml every 2-3 hour

Sleeps throughout the night

Is teething but no teeth yet

Bite her own toes

Starts pulling my hair

Knows how to reach her hands out for toys or whatever things she sees

Can't sleep when its hot

Loves her bath

Loves smiling, even to strangers

Can lie on her tummy longer

Lift her head up longer when lie on tummy

Can turn herself to her tummy
Caught her scratching her head a few times

In a blink of eyes, 5 months just pass like that. Bbygirl grow up already, always surprise me with new progress! She's the only person who can make me happy just by smiling.

Weekend

2011-02-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed my weekends with bbygirl ♥♥♥

Woke up with a bad headache on Saturday due to the drinking session I had the previous night. Fetch her and went home to change her before heading out to meet Emily and her bbygirl. Trained to NEX to meet Isabella, had lunch together and chitchat. Walked around till 4plus, went home to changed bbygirl into a fresh clothe and went over to CGH to visit Andy together with Joanne. But didn't stay long though.

Spend the whole morning and afternoon of Sunday with bbygirl. 4plus, send her back.

Simple weekend I had with bbygirl :)

Updates on darling

2011-02-22T23:56:00.001+08:00

Recent pictures of darling.
Am always looking forward to weekends cuz thats when I can spend my time with my darling. Though sometimes she is very noisy due to her teething. Yes, she's teething already. Biting whatever things that she take. Other then that, she had been a good girl! Always make me very happy and cheer me up with her sweet smile :)

Last Saturday I fed darling pureen, her first solid food. She loves it and she's clever know. She knows how to take the spoon and put in her mouth! But actually she is snatching from me. Video down how darling ate her first solid food, cannot stop laughing when I see the video. And after everything, she made a mess. Her clothes, my clothes and my hair had stain of the pureen.

Darling's turning 5 months old in a few weeks time. Soon she'll turn 1 years old. Haha. Can't wait! :)

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Updates

2011-02-15T20:46:00.001+08:00

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4 month

2011-02-06T23:13:00.001+08:00

Happy 4 months old darling girl!!!

-still drinking 100-125ml of milk every 2 hour in the day and once or twice during midnight
-can sleep throughout most night
-dont like to lie down but sit down or being carried instead
-whine when lie down for too long
-sucking fingers, fist and everything that land in her hand
-able to lie on tummy and lift her head up & smile
-can sit on stroller and even fall asleep
-able to take her beansprout pillow up
-can flip to left side
-can life her up and see behind

Thats all I can remember.

Darling is 4 month old already. How fast! Love her alot!

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Tiring

2011-01-31T23:50:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a tiring day.
Showered darling and I went shower & prepare. Met him at house downstairs and he drove us to whitesands to walk around. Evening went 201, waited for him while he went massage. To simei fetch sis & back to 201. Till 11+, he went off. Shortly after I went home with Zn and to realise I left my carrier and Zn milk powder in his car.

Till here

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H.A.P.P.Y.!

2011-01-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

Happy!!!! Cause tomorrow fetching darling home, not for 2 days but ONE WEEK!!! Am so looking forward to tomorrow! Miss her so much, especially her cheeky smile which never fail to bright up my day.

Wonder when will darling call me mummy^^

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Blessed life

2011-01-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

Fetch Zn on last Saturday. Damn happy when I saw her! Told her "darling, mummy miss you so much!" then she smiled at me! She always got ways to make my days. Trained home with darling sleeping the whole journey. But darling cranky from 8pm plus till 10pm. Cried nonstop lor. Manager to coax her to sleep with pacified, like finally after 2 months plus she finally gave in to pacified again. Nap with her till 11pm. But darling slept till 3.30am. Fed her milk, played with her awhile and she went back to sleep.

On Sunday darling damn hyper. Woke up for milk at 8+ then dont wana sleep. I was very tired so left darling on my bed with me while I fall asleep and she playing with herself till she fall asleep. When I wake up, she hugged my bearbear while she sleep. Changed her and down to kallang to meet dad and send darling back.

Miss her alot already but on the other hand, will be bringing her back for prolly a week for cny. Hopefully I can.

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love zn

2011-01-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

Darling girl

Time pass so fast when im with Zn. Saturday afternoon fetch her at novena. Was so happy to see her, hugged and plant many many kisses on her. Off to kallang to find dad for lunch. Went separate way after that. Waited for her daddy to come down and cab home. Settled Zn down, fed her and played with her. Went over to clive's place at 9+ to find sheena. I swear her baby, layna is super cute! Both babies like communicating through their baby language, funny! 11+, clive's dad send me to 201. Waited for Zn's daddy. He carried Zn all the way from when im eating to we reached home. I jokingly told him that he only can go off when Zn is asleep. He help to feed Zn, burp her and shake her to sleep then he went off! Chitchat with him on the phone for awhile before sleeping.

This afternoon, showered Zn, fed her and packed her stuff. Went over to pass her to the foster parent. Before she left, plant kisses on her and told her "darling, mummy love you" Train to kallang to have dinner with dad before heading home. And now I miss Zn so much already!!!

happy!

2011-01-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

Happy! Cause tomorrow bringing zn back! ^^

2011-01-11T23:18:00.015+08:00

Her cheeky smile

Blog have been private already.

Pack some of zn's stuff in the afternoon and went over to Elizabeth office. Waited for the lady incharge of the fostering procedure to come. Signed the papers already, send zn to their car. When wana pass zn to the lady, I broke down. Cried terribly. Heartpain like mad. Hugged zn tightly, plant many many kisses on her before she left.

Hope Saturday faster come so I can cuddle zn in my arms again! Seriously miss her a lot. Scare she can't adapt without me, scare she can't sleep at night, scare this scare that. Sighhhhhhhhhh!

Sleeping on my hand and grabbing my pyjamas^^

2 picture taken today

Darling, mummy will bring you back this Saturday! Mummy miss you a lot!!!!

tomorrow

2011-01-10T16:52:00.002+08:00

Will be privating my blog tomorrow night

3rd month

2011-01-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

A video of zn giggling and laughing taken today :)

3 months ago, I was in labour ward bringing zn to this world. Going through all those horrible pains from contractions. 3 months later, she is an adorable daughter by my side. In a blink of eyes, its been 3 months since zn's arrival. Though I didn't have a proper sleep since her arrival, whenever she smile, my heart melt. And she bought so much joy in my life!

Still drinking 100ml - 125ml every 2 hourly in the day and every 4 - 6 hourly in the night as she sleep longer in the night
sometimes can sleep 4 - 6 hours in the night, even can sleep throughout. Loves to sit down instead of lying down. Loves sucking her hands. Can giggle at 2 months plus. Can stable her head at early 2 months. Whenever she's tired, she'll whine. Will smile if you talk and play with her. Had her first smile and first yawn at 2 day old. During my confinement period, once I heard her mumbling "aiya!" randomly.

Some of her cutesy photos from birth till 3 months old.

Happy 3 months darling! Mummy luv you always! :)

Once everything is settled, I'll private my blog.

photos of zn

2011-01-04T13:43:00.000+08:00

Priceless gift

zn

2011-01-02T17:33:00.002+08:00

Delete all of zn's photos from my facebook. Next will be privating my blog.

2010-12-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

Greatest gift I've received from God this year.

Not going anywhere for countdown this year. Staying home with my princess instead :)

private blog

2010-12-30T21:12:00.001+08:00

Might private my blog soon. Don't wanna let him see the progress of zn, not even a single photo of her. Leave your email down and I'll invite you.

Dad told me not to do that to him. Maybe I should just forgive and forget?

Xmas

2010-12-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

My princess can lift her head up by herself! :)

Merry christmas people! First Christmas spending at home with zn accompanying me:)

Happy 25th bday

2010-12-15T23:41:00.008+08:00

Happiness is seeing zn grow healthily ♥

10 Dec, Yiting and Malvin came over at 10+. Waited till close to 12am, celebrated Yiting's birthday.

14 Dec, woke up at 10am and get prepared, showered zn. Went visit Bro together with younger sis and cousin and zn. Zn was all smile when we were talking to bro. Bro also kept smiling and waving to zn! But when bro have to go back, she started crying. Awww. Actually there's one more visit this month but bro says he doesn't want tele-visit, he wants face-to-face visit. So, we're left with the very last visit next month!!! :)

Home after that to get zn's stroller as I didn't bring stroller out. 201 to eat with sis. Walk over to meet Sarah, like finally! Went over to bugis and walked around and back to Tampines for a short walk before heading to 201 to find Dad and Sis.

Today:

Happy 25th Birthday:)

Initially thought he won't be coming over so nua at home playing with zn. But when he called, saying he's coming over soon. Went to 201 with zn and sis to buy cake for him. Rush home quickly after that. I even lie to him that I went 201 just to take a stroll, lol. When he reached, play with zn awhile then I took the cake out. Cut a big slice for him, a slice for sis. Didn't eat though. Shower zn, then went shower and pack zn's stuff. Bus over to Tampines 1 and walked around.

And he bought zn this chipmuck soft toy. I think zn love the soft toy cuz she keep staring at it when we put infront of her on the stroller. Haha. Tampines mall to get her vacuum flask. He send me to 201 after that to find Dad.

Zn started to know how to play saliva already. Always drooling even when she see me eating! She can scream in joy, giggle in her sleep and even smile & scream happily! :)

zn progress

2010-12-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

In a blink of eyes, zn is already 2month 1day old! At only 2month old, she can support her head quite steady already! She'll always 'ahhhh' 'ehhhh' in her baby language whenever I play with her. Still drinking 100-125ml of milky every 2-3hourly during day time. Love sucking her hand till her mitten is all wet! Give her pacifer to stop her from sucking her hand, she'll smile when pacifer is put in her mouth. Can sleep around 4-6hours through the night. Loves to be carry instead of lying down. Can sleep longer if sleep on her side. Whenever she gek her poo, she'll lie still and kick here and there when she's done.

Everyday, zn is growing and its a joy seeing her growth. Its something money can't buy. I can differentiate her cries, be it if she's hungry or wants her diapers changed or when she's tired. No matter how tough or tired it is, its always worth it, only for zn!

Though sometimes I really don't like how people always use those "so young got baby already" eyes and see me, but all I need is to see zn smiling sweetly, those comments or those looks are off my mind. Doesn't matter that I've a daughter at such young age, just by watching her grow everyday is a happiness that no one has ever gave me :)

This is how she always suck her hand!

Meet my chor lor princess, hehe.

2months old

2010-12-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

Zn is 2 months old today! :)

Although you always scream at Mummy, pee on Mummy, even poo on Mummy's hand, always want full attention from Mummy, always tired Mummy out, Mummy love you the most, darling :)

Birth story of zn

2010-12-01T23:42:00.001+08:00

Bump @ 40.5weeks, which marks the end of my pregnancy.

5th Oct 7pm+, was hesitating if to go for induction as I was overdue already. Yet I'm still very scare of going through labour alone and the thought of those horrible pain scare me off! After an hour, decided to self admit for induction. Bathed, double check my hospital bag and left @ 8pm+. Told no one except both my sis, Priscilla, Belle & biqi. Reached around 10pm+. Was being observed under CTG for around 30minutes+, he called & told me I've got appointment the next day. Told him I'm at hospital for induce delivery already. Doc came and explain everything & check cervix, 1cm dilated. Inserted pill aftermath and send to labour room.

11pm+, mild contractions. Even the nurses say the pill super power on me cuz shortly after inserting I've mild contractions. On phone with him for few hours & also texting with Priscilla, Belle & Biqi.

2am+, contraction starts to get a little pain but still bearable. Nurse gave me laughing gas and it helps! Though it made me drowsy at the start. The mask never left me till morning!

From 2am+ till morning, no doc came and check. 7am+, only 2cm dilated but the doc stretched till 3cm.

6 Oct, 8.15am, 4cm dilated. Doc broke my waterbag a little as my waterbag had already burst a little previously. Contraction pain got worse that left me shouting & screaming. Doc came in to check on me & told me the whole delivery suite is full of my shouting & screaming. Lol, paiseh lo! Nurse asked if I wanted epidural, I refused. Called him and he says he's coming soon. Waited & waited, text and call, still the same reply, coming soon.

11am+, couldn't take the pain anymore. Nurse asked if I want epidural & offered to call Dad for me. I shouted "yes! Call my father now!" As I'm under 21 and not married, parental consent is needed for epidural. Dad rushed down halfway from work in less then 30minutes and rushed the nurse to give me epidural.

11.52am, Epidural given, felt better. Slept for half an hour. He's yet to come. Slowly, the pain started again. Stupid epidural, useless only. Shouldn't even have take epidural at all!

2.47pm, 7cm dilated. Pain like no tomorrow which left me screaming, shouting & crying. I even hit and kicked the bed railing! Nurse prepared equipments all ready.

3pm, got the urge to push so called for nurse. Checked and was fully dilated and the nurse told me I'm ready to push. And he reached. I was in terrible pain which left me crying pretty badly. Started pushing and kept asking him if bb's head is out. I think he got irritated and told me to just push la! Did as I am told. Halfway through I screamed at him saying "I don't wanna give birth already la! I got no more strength to push!" He told me to just push and I pushed with whatever strength I got. 30minutes+ later, I felt bb sliding out. Heard her first cry & you know what? I actually cried too! Cuz I was really overjoyed. While the nurse was cleaning bb, I kept telling him to carry bb to me.

When I first saw bb, I really couldn't believe that this is my daughter that I've carried for the past 10months! I love her like there's no tomorrow! Hahaha! Bb was pushed to ward while I waited to be stitch. Side effect of epidural kicked in, vomited yellow liquid an aftermath kept on want to vomit but nothing came out. Was given panadol and even jabs but nothing helps. He went off after that.

Pushed to ward around 7pm+. Saw him outside delivery suite. As well as Sis & Biqi. Mad touched when I saw Sis! Vomited the whole lot of yellow liquid when I was at ward. Bb was pushed out and i can't wait to carry her! Snap pictures like mad only. Carried bb and I was like, omg this is my darling!

Baby Zhining first day on earth ^^

Horrible

2010-11-27T16:01:00.040+08:00

Brought bb to polyclinic for her hep jab on Wednesday. The moment she was injected, she screamed & cried till her whole face turn red! Managed to coax her till she stop screaming and surprisingly, 5minutes later she smiled happily at me!

This few days was a horrible day! Bb can't sleep at night. Wednesday night, she cried for milk every one hourly yet she only drink like 50-90ml when usually she drink 110-125ml. No matter how I coax her to sleep, she still whine and cry! Till morning 7+ she managed to sleep till 8+ and wake up for milk. After her milk and changing of diaper, she start her whining and crying again till almost 10am! Don't know what to do, I called her daddy and ask him to listen to her crying. Like stupid only, hahaha!!

Yesterday was also a horrible night! Bb slept at 2am+ and wake up at 4am+ for milk. Then she doesn't want to sleep already. Start her whining and crying till this morning. Didn't really sleep, just close my eyes, listening to her cryings as I really don't know what to do. She had her milk, had her diaper changed already yet she doesn't want to sleep in yao lan. End up, she cried till her next feeding time and goodness, she vomited while drinking her milk. Bath her and gave a little milk cuz she cried for milk again and finally, manage to coax her to sleep.

Never getting enough sleep since she is born, never eating a proper meal unless Dad cook or bring me to eat, everything is really turning upside down. Sometimes thinking about how I can't lead my own life, can't party till late like last time, can't this and that, because I've a daughter, I'm a mother already, but all this doesn't matter at all. Cuz, I lost my freedom but God gave me an adorable daughter which never fail to bright my day up with her sweet smile and all her cute little actions!

Bb is 1month 3weeks old today :) How time fly, she'll be 2month old in 1weeks time! Still a long way before she calls me "Mummy" ! Can' wait, hehehe!

Zn bb:)

2010-11-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

She's my everything

As usual, its still very tiring everyday but you know, no matter how tired, whenever I see bb smiling happily and sweetly, my heart melt! Ever since she's born, my life is about her, her & still her. If not for her, I think I'll still be clubbing, drinking and playing my life away. Now a mother, everything is about baby & no more playing. Though I've to give up so many things, but for bb, everything is worth it! And never have I regret it at all!

Now at 1month 1week & 6days old, she's a chubby baby:) She's always smiling even when she's sleeping! How time fly, she will be two month old in like two weeks time. Can't wait for her to call me Mummy ^^

Update on zn

2010-11-11T02:00:00.001+08:00

Irreplaceable ♥

2AM now. I just finish my dinner which I eat from 11+. Bb was sleeping in the yao lan and she kept waking up so I keep on eat halfway have the shake her yao lan.

Brought her to polyclinic for her hep jab in the noon. She's a good girl when we're out just now:) Hep jab was reschedule to two weeks later as her hand had infection from the bcg jab. And she's weighing at 4.6kg! Heavy girl, haha. Night time Joanne and her bf came over. Accompany them eat dinner and had some chat. Home after that.

Bb is one month five day old today. How fast! Confinement was horrible cuz my every meal only has got meat. Only towards the end of confinement I manage to have vegetable. But I still shower everyday and drink cold water, hehehe. Now I'm back home without help from Aunt, I've learn how to bath bb. And with a yao lan, its easier for me. Still can't fit into my pre pregnancy shorts :( Only lost like 4kg, sad la! Still got 11kg to shed! Hopefully I'll be able to slim down to my pre pregnancy weight and shed away the fats on my tummy.

one month

2010-11-06T20:11:00.000+08:00

Darling is one month old:)

photos

2010-11-01T20:36:00.001+08:00

Recent photos of bb:)

Tiring

2010-10-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

This is what makes everything worth it, her smile.

Waking up every 3 hour to feed her, have to wait till she sleep then I can sleep, its really very tiring. But when she smile, no matter how tired, its all worth it:) After she is being fed, she'll always smile happily. And whenever her daddy call, she'll smile! She knows her daddy called, hahaha!! And she knows her daddy love her a lot!

I was told that seeing your baby under the UV light for jaundice is really heartbreaking. How true. Bb was admitted on the 10th cuz her jaundice was high and was put under four light. When I saw her crying, really break my heart a lot. Me and her daddy couldn't do anything but see her under four light and I was like, holding on to my tears. For two night, she wasn't by my side and it was horrible not having her with me until 12th. Yesterday bought her to polyclinic for her jaundice review and it was much better. She didn't cry at all when her leg was pricked by the doctor, my brave girl:) Priscilla came and find me for a short while with her baby boy. He was cute!

Having bb is the greatest gift ever, really. A gift from God.

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Bb arrived!

2010-10-11T21:42:00.001+08:00

Bb arrived on 6 October 2010 :)

Went for induction on the 5th as bb was 40weeks 5days. Was horrible with all the labour pain, pushing, screaming, shouting and crying. Thank god he was there for me! :)

Just a few photos first.

Daddy playing with daughter:)

Smiling in her sleep!

Still can't believe that I'm a mom now!!!

Horrible

2010-10-03T20:27:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't like it when someone make a decision for me. I'm already 20 and know how to make my own decision. To be honest, sometimes I really want to just end my life. I feel so pressurize that I am always crying each night, and even have suicided thoughts. The feeling is so sucks!! Feel as though I'm suffering from depression, really.

Bb is 40weeks 3days. Some are worried, keep on asking me to induce. I understand that they care but I know what I'm doing. Bb is still very active, kicking and moving around more then usual. And its not as if I'm keeping her inside me forever. No doubt, my EDD was three days ago. But, its ESTIMATED which means it not an accurate date given.

On the other hand, its been like almost three weeks since we break up. Honestly speaking, this three weeks is horrible with all the cryings and horrible feeling. Whenever he came to my mind, I'll start crying. Each night, I can't sleep. I'll always look through our pictures and text messages we send to each other, thinking about how happy I was with him back then. Recalling how sweet he was to me, tolerating my nonsense and even my temper. I remember him asking me "are you sure you can live with me", today I realise I can't live without him. Without him, I am so lost. Before I met him, I don't believe in love at first sight. I used to think its rubbish. Till the day I first met him, I finally know what's love at first sight.

40weeks

2010-09-30T18:31:00.001+08:00

Today's my EDD! Bb is 40 weeks already:) But still no sign of labour. Shall wait a few days more and see how it goes. Really get irritated when people tell me to admit to hospital for induced delivery. Googled about overdue labour and it stated that baby can stay in till 42weeks. So, don't understand why are people more worried then I am.

Anyway, I've been meeting Biqi almost everyday! She's really afraid that I'll have contraction/waterbag burst at home alone. Haha! Sometimes I even joke with her saying my stomach pain and she will get a shock, panicking. I know I know, don't joke about this kinda thing. Lol.

Last night was watching drama shows, my phone rang with the ring tone I thought I'll never get to hear anymore. Yes, he called! Was shocked when I heard the ring tone. I really didn't expect he'll call. Was really happy upon receiving his call and him asking if I deliver already not. He even thought of name for bb :) Though the conversation was only 30minutes, am still glad that he called. Initially got so much to tell him, but when I heard his voice, nothing came out of my mouth. From the way he talk, can sense that he's having a hard time at work. Hope he'll take care of his health!! Nevertheless, I'm really happy when he called :)

Bump at 39weeks 1day

Bump at 40weeks

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1 more day

2010-09-29T04:20:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my EDD!!! But still no sign of labour. Am really scare, will be going through labour all by myself :(

Well, ever since the day I move back (19 july), insomnia gets worse each day. Previously when I was staying with him, I get to see him everyday, I have no problem sleeping, the latest I slept was 2am+. Now without him, I only can sleep after 5am. Sometimes even later, in the morning 7+. Realised that I really can't sleep without him. And I will be lying if I say I don't miss him. Without him, I don't know what will become of me, seriously.

Will I really be going through labour all by myself? :(

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Waiting

2010-09-25T05:23:00.000+08:00

39weeks 2days now, bb is still enjoying swimming inside :)

Wondering how you're doing now. Wondering if you remember to take good care of your health. So many things running through my mind, everything is about you, you and you.

How I find out about bb's existence

2010-09-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

In a blink of eye, my EDD is like only 10 days away. It really feel like yesterday I found out about my pregnancy. 9months into this pregnancy, really been through a lot. Pregnancy is really not easy at all.

Recalling back to January of how this pregnancy started. It wasn't a withdrawal (if you know what it mean). I was really scare asking him what if I really get pregnant and stuff yet on the hand I tell myself, 'won't want la'. 2 days later on the 6th Jan, I started a new job. Day by day, my appetite get better and I get hungry easily. And I began to eat sour plum sweet. In the past, I only eat the sweet and spit the sour plum away but back then, I ate the sour plum instead. Still I didnt though much about it although got a little scare.

My last menses was on last year christmas. So as the date got nearer to 25th Jan, I began to feel scare because usually my menses come earlier then the date, my menses was regular and only once I missed it for a week. And at a point of time he also notice that my stomach kinda getting bigger and I even told him it was fats. He actually bought a pregnancy kit without telling me and say when we meet, we go test as both of us was working and only got to meet during off days.

26th alr, menses still didn't come. Got really worried, but keep asking if can don't test a not. Gave lots of excuses like menses will come want and stuff. But he says, stomach like getting bigger and of cause, was worried too. So insist that when we meet up, must test. But before we even meet up and test, I tested myself. Yiting and Sammy accompany me to polyclinic one day but didn't test or what as the queue was long or something. So I got myself a really cheap pregnancy kit that cost only six bucks as I was really broke at that time and the want he bought was still unused till today. Went to Yiting's house after that. Just as I wanted to go toilet and test, he called me but I didn't tell him about it and went test. At first only one line appear so told myself, not pregnant la. When I turn my head, I saw another line and it turn out to be Positive! I started to panic and went out, whispering to Yiting saying, positive leh, how?! I was still on phone with him and he heard me whispering and asked what's the whispering is about. I just brush it off saying nothing much. I really don't know to be happy or worry at that time. So I told him on the spot that I'm pregnant and he got a shock, i think. I even thought of aborting.

I went to polyclinic and get referral letter to KKH and the date I was given was one month later on march. But weeks before the appointment date on February, my tummy hurts so went polyclinic and see doctor as I thought it was nothing but the doctor told me to go KKH A&E straight away. The doctor did a check and showed me bb. Although it was just a little pea, I saw the heartbeat and I smiled happily and even cried. Immediately I told myself, I don't want to abort it. I was really determine to keep this innocent life. And he agreed to it.

Slowly, those symptom came one by one. Trimester one, morning sickness was horrible, I had it almost every single day. Appetite got slightly better as I wasn't a big eater before pregnant. Started putting on weight. Get tired easily. Increased in cup size which I hate it a lot.

Trimester two, no more morning sickness. Began to crave for certain food, especially laksa. Backache started but was bearable. Still getting tired easily. Put on weight as usual. Easily moodswing. Couldn't sleep on my back as I find it difficult to breath so could only sleep my side.

Trimester three was horrible. Backache got worse. Appetite was good, could eat a lot. Put on a lot of weight. Insomnia started, always sleeping late and it got worse as time pass. Craving for a lot of food. Stretch marks appeared on thigh, followed by butt. Experienced contractions and even heavy bleeding. Always can't sleep comfortably due to my big bump. At time will feel breathless even when lying down. Moodswing got worse.

Despite all these nonsensical stuff and my on and off moodswing which got worse as time pass, he still tolerated all my nonsense. Those symptom are a real horrible, but for the little one it is all worth it. I could remember the joy I had when she first kick me, those little kicks really make my day a good wants.

Updates on bb

2010-09-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

Went for my check up this afternoon. While waiting for Love's mom at the clinic, I bump into Sheena and Clive! Chit chat a little. Love's mom reached, went for my scanning. Bb's in head down position and will come out anytime!! Aftermath went to Clinic C, did urine test and took height and weight. Height still the same -.- whereas weight, I put on 0.9kg, am like 57.3kg now :( See doctor after that, was told that everything is fine, bb is weighing at 2.7kg. While doing the scan, bb can't stop moving! Went eat together with Love's mom after check up. Done eating, trained over to Linda's place to get the sterliser from her. While on the way back in train, this aunty saw me with a big bump and a big bag containing the sterliser, she just look at me and close her eye. Damn her.

Was out since 1plus in the noon till night. Damn tiring. Bb coming out like anytime, am scare and nervous. But yet I'm excited, hehe. Hope she don't give me a hard time during labour :)

Right, besides this, I went over to Yiting's place last Saturday. Had heart to heart talk :) Stay till 11plus and went back.

小姨 bought these for bb :)
She even called me and told me to go home earlier when I was going to Linda's place.

Bump at 36weeks 5days.

Till here.

36weeks

2010-09-02T02:45:00.000+08:00

So fast its already September. Bb is 36weeks today. In a few weeks or so, she'll be arriving to this world. Really can't believe that 8months just pass so fast and I'm gonna be a mother. It feels like yesterday that I just know I'm pregnant! And the next thing is I'm gonna be giving birth soon. Am excited upon bb's arrival yet on the other hand I'm scare and nervous! So far, I only have stretchmarks on my butt and my tights. I swear its damn ugly
Hopefully there won't be any on my bump!

Went for check up on the 24th August, supposed to be on the 10th. Only did CTG cause bb didn't move after I had a fall weeks back. Supposed to have scanning but cause of delaying of going for check up, they are only able to make a appointment for me to see the doctor but not the scanning. A kind social worker accompany me to the check up. Next check up on next tues
to do scanning see if bb's in head down position cause the other time bb is in breech position.

So after the check up, I went to 313 with Yiting. Had my first meal of the day there with her. Walked around for a little while before making our way home. On the 27th, Yiting and Zhangmin came over and find me. As usual, had some talks.

Oh, on August 15th I met up with Jonas!!! Like finally you know. She happen to come to Tampines so met her and Emerson at Tampines mall. Jonas said she almost couldn't recognise me! I think its because I put on so much weight, haha. Wonder when will I be able to meet Francesca together with Jonas. We've been talking about wanting to meet together but till now still haven meet. Girls, when are we be able to meet up together? :)

Throughout this pregnancy, I only grew 1cm. Pathetic only! But I put on hell lots of weight! Before I was pregnant, I was 42kg. Had my weight taken on last check up, I ballooned to 56kg! Gained 14kg, more fats to come :( fats on my face, tights, butt and my waist. Everytime when I look at the mirror, I feel like crying seeing myself so fat :( Last time before pregnant I was so skinny yet I always complain that I'm fat. Sometimes I even dig out all the food I've eat afraid that I'll get fat. Now I am really fat. Really really fat this time. I want my pre pregnancy figure back so badly. I wanna be able to wear nice clothes. I don't want to be fat. And I miss wearing heels so much!!!

Two picture for now.

Part of the baby clothes, these are rompers, dress and pants. Top left hand 4piece of clothes and the pink baby soft shoe is from Shirley :)

Bump at 34weeks 1day.

1 year

2010-08-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

Happy 1 year anniversary♥
365 days ago, from friends to couple.
At times I think of those time when we were still friends, how much fun we'll always have when I go over and find you, how happy I was when we hugged each other to sleep when we are not even together yet. I remember how I always giggle when I receive your call/text every single day.
I remember how embarrassing it was when you were told that I like you, how anxious I was when we meet after you know how I feel towards you. I remember I was so scare you'll start to avoid me when you know how I feel but you didn't. You still call and text me everyday. I remember how I just pretend that you still don't know about how I feel when i know that you already knew how I feel.
Words couldn't describe how happy I was on 365 days ago. Everything was so sweet with you around. Till today, everything from the day we knew each other till we became couple and to being a parent soon, I still remember it clearly. No matter what happen, me and bb only love you. :)

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Last Friday went all the way to Redhill on my own to Linda's place to get a bag of baby clothes. A big bag to be exact. Took cab back and the cab driver kept going big round and drive slowly, so total cab fare came up to almost $30 -.- Stopped at 3 block away from home and walked back on my own with that big bag. The baby clothes are so tiny and cute! Sorted all and hand washed some of it. Wonder how am I gonna wash the rest when the other time I felt so uncomfortable squating down washing the clothes.

Tuesday met up with Shirley. Talked about lots of stuff about pregnancy and she passed me some maternity clothes. Went up her house to see her baby girl, very cute! <: Wonder if my bb would be as cute? Haha. Beside that, had some talk with her parent too. All of them are so friendly :) Stayed till 10plus, went home.

Went over 800plus and meet Yiting and her 2 cute cousin today :) Lunch together, the 3 girls studied for awhile while I just search for baby names. Walked around for awhile and went home.

Well, had been cracking my head over name for bb. Thought of Janabelle and Anabelle for english name. For chinese name still got no idea yet though I like the name Jia En. Any suggestions? :)

33weeks

2010-08-12T21:47:00.002+08:00

Haven been updating for a week. Nothing much happen. Have been at home everyday, can't walk much so didn't go out at all except to buy food. Other than that, stay home watching television with younger sis. Its bored staying at home everyday but no choice.

Bb is 33 weeks already. How time fly, in a blink of eye its been 8months into this pregnancy. Backaches getting worse, sometimes I can even wake up at midnight because of the pain. In a month or so, bb will be arriving to this world. I should be happy and excited for bb's arrival but I can't help worrying that bb will be a premature baby as the doc told me that there is risk of preterm labour. Everyday I worry about bb's health, hoping that she will be a healthy baby and not a preemie. I wonder how some woman can go through labour without epidural. I doubt I can do that since I have low tolerance level for pain. I am even afraid of injections :/ How to go through labour like that?! One woman I knew during the stay at hospital told me, pain for awhile only, when you see your baby everything is worth it. I agree :)

Baby fair is on. Wonder if I could go with Love this Sunday. Though I told him I just want to take a look, I am secretly hoping we can get some stuff for bb. Let's see if we'll be able to go for the baby fair. Keeping my fingers crossed, haha! Been 10 days since I met Love. Really miss him a lot. Everyday looking forward to meet him. Hopefully nothing clash on this Sunday so I can meet him :)

10 more days to 1year ^^

Last romance

2010-08-02T22:07:00.005+08:00

Woke up quite early today as the sound of drilling from don't know which neighbor is killing me. Super noisy. Text Love and he called shortly after. Talked for awhile. Watched drama shows, cooked lunch. 5plus, wanted to get prepared to meet Amanda. But was having conflicts with Love earlier on, and he came over. Had some talk, aftermath went for dinner at 8plus. Accompany Love to wait for cab and he went home. Now, I'm watching tv and bb is kicking me non stop.

When bb move around I can feel it. I can even see my bump pop out when she kick :)

When will you sayang bb again?

Horrible, terrible!

2010-08-01T19:04:00.007+08:00

I have to admit that this pregnamcy isn't an easy want. Backache are common but I really can't stand the pain. Sometimes the pain is till the extend I really wanna cry out. Thus, occasionally I always can't get to sleep. Apart from this, I experience contractions at 30weeks pregnant which happen last week and was admitted to hospital.

I thought, since I can be discharge last Sunday, everything should be alright and I was given medicine to stop contractions cause bb is not full term yet. But hell no! On Thursday I had heavy bleeding twice. Since I had heavy bleeding once and spotting previously, I didn't thought it is serious. The next day on Friday, I had heavy bleeding twice. This time round I was really worried. Called Love and told him about it, I was crying when telling him. He was working so he transferred money to me and told me to take cab to kkh and see a doctor. But I took train instead. Reached, was told to go to Delivery suite. Was told that I have to be admitted but I refused. But when the nurse told me for that sake of bb, I give in.

Like last week, was at Delivery suite being strap on to the machine to monitor bb's heartbeat and contractions. Detected that I was having strong contractions every one minute and every 30second aftermath. But I don't feel pain at all. Was put on drip, the medicine left me shouting in pain and they have to remove the drip as my hand was swollen from the medicine. Couldn't even sleep well at all.

Yesterday morning was send for scanning. Aftermath send to normal ward. Was told to rest as much as possible and try not to walk. Nurse don't even allow me to walk around. Was damn bored the whole day. Younger sis came in the evening. Accompany me till 8plus. She bought food for me just after I've eaten. Love's mom came in the evening too. She bought Famous amos cookies and Milo for me. Chitchat and she left awhile later. Couldn't get to sleep at all. Text Love, he called and we talked on the phone till 12plus ^^ Slept at 2plus after having my medicine which taste damn awful.

Woke up at 6plus this morning, doing nothing. Doctor came at 8am, asked when could I be discharge and was told I could be discharge today. Waited till 11plus and the nurse came with my medicine. Change and went to make payment. Took bus back and the journey was like shit, feel nausea throughout.

For now, I really hope that bb will be safe and sound. I don't want her to be a premature baby. Love says no cold water and I didn't even had cold water the whole day. Better to listen to him as I don't want anything to happen to bb. Even when walking, I walked very slow. Although the medicine taste seriously awful, I forced myself to eat it. So long as bb is safe, it doesn't matter :) I guess this is how all mothers think, that as long as bb is safe and sound, everything is worth it. So, all I want for bb is for her to be safe and sound, and to only come to this world when she's full term :)

Always love you

2010-07-27T21:29:00.010+08:00

Everything is okay already. Was discharged two days ago. Little precious is fine already though I feel she's getting heavier, at times I find it hard to move around. I can even feel her turning around :)

9th day without you by my side, everything doesn't feel right. I miss cuddling you to sleep. I miss seeing you sleeping. I miss snatching pillow from you. I miss playing cards with you, betting on silly stuff. I miss how we'll play games on facebook together. I miss how you'll buy Mc Flurry back for me. I miss how you'll get angry whenever I take your cigarette and asked if I could smoke. I miss how you'll always disturb me every morning with silly faces and silly stuff. I miss how you'll sayang my bump, listening to what bb is doing. I miss how you'll always talk to bb, asking her to kick me. There's so much things I miss, but I miss you a lot. Really hope to see you on Thursday. Although we don't sms and talk on the phone for hours happily like we used to, although we are not as loving like we used to, remember I'll always love you no matter what. And also, bb loves you too :)

Contractions

2010-07-24T19:07:00.002+08:00

How could a woman who is 30 weeks pregnant experience contraction when the due date is still 10 weeks later? Yeap, yesterday I woke up and made myself milk to drink. Halfway drinking, my stomach starting feeling a little pain. Slowly, the pain got worse. Couldn't take it so text Love, he was busy but I only thought of him at that time.

Was crying in pain and talking to him at the same time. Really feel horrible, every 5mimutes or so, I experience pain. The longest was like 30minutes. At first I didn't know it was contraction as I wasn't due yet and I never know the feeling, I thought it was just a normal stomache cause I shit two time. After two hour of pain, I seriously couldn't take it and called for ambulance, was send to kkh delivery suite. Was being strapped on to a machine to monitor Little precious heartbeat and contraction.

It was really horrible with needles poking me and with all those drip to stop contraction. Love came over after work with food and a lot of bread for me. I told him Little precious can't wait to see the world, lol. Then he touched my bump and talked to Little precious, and I was smiling :) Around 12, he needa go off as he has work today & need to wake up at like 730. Was so happy that he came down yesterday :)

Being strapped on to the machine, I couldn't sleep well. I can't sleep on my side, back is pain and nurse came in to check very often. Woke up every 30minutes and you know what, I keep the light on when I sleep cause I dare not sleep :/ Anyway at 6plus in the morning, was send to ward. Didn't sleep at all. Just lie down watching television. 2plus, was send to another ward. Aunt came with soup, drank a little. After awhile, sis came with stuff I asked to help me bring over. After awhile, they went off. Since morning I've been asking for the doctor cause I want to go back! I hate staying at hospital. Only till now, I was told that the doctor will be here tomorrow morning -.- The toddlers that are relatives of the patient here are screaming and shouting like nobody business till my head hurts that I just want to take my stuff and leave. Yet the nurses here did nothing about it. Well, I just hope I can go back tomorrow and of cause hope that Little precious will be fine. Much as I can't wait for her arrival, I hope she won't be so anxious to arrive like now.

Little precious, did you heard what your daddy told you last night? That you can only come out 60 days later. :)

11months

2010-07-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy 11 months ^^

4th day I'm sleeping alone. Still can't get to sleep at night as usual. Nothing feels right when you're not by my side. Everyday when I wake up, the first thing on my mind is you. I'll text you when I wake up, without fail though sometime I'm afraid to disturb you. Every night, being able to talk to you after you knock off from work makes me feel happy. But, I told you as long as I'm able to see you, I'm happy already. Its Thursday already, how many more days before I can see you. How many more days before you sayang Little precious. We miss you a lot! :)

Anyway I don't know what's wrong with formspring. After I answered questions, it doesn't appear. So, to Anonymous who ask me to blog about my pregnancy, I will when I'm free.

Miss you

2010-07-21T00:46:00.005+08:00

Since I can't get to sleep, decided to update blog instead.

After so long, finally met up with Yiting just now. Well, with a balloon stomach now, there isn't much clothing I could wear. So was rushing over to e hub to meet her as I spend a lot of time searching for clothes. Kbox and it was her treat :) There's only the two of us, sang till I really feel like sleeping :/ After all, it was enjoying with just two of us. Thanks so much sis :)

On the other hand, it the second night sleeping all by myself. Couldn't even get to sleep the first night. When I wake up, the first thing I do is to sms Love. Its only the second day yet I'm missing him hell lots. How to survive till next week?! Hope he won't tired himself from work as he doesn't have off day this week :( and also to remember to eat his meals. And I know Little precious miss him too :)

Younger sis is sleeping, I'm alone and bored. She really can sleep a lot. Let's hope she wakes up soon so I will have someone to talk to, haha. Aunt came over in the noon just now with corn soup for me :) shared with younger sis since Aunt cooked a lot. Before she left, she kept on telling me to drink more soup. And I remember I even asked if the soup was bitter before she came over, lol!

Didn't get to talk much just now, probably just ten minutes or so. I know you sense that I was kinda irritated cause I don't like it when you use the com and talk to me at the same time. It makes you feel distracted and you don't seem to listen to what I was saying. Since I can't see you everyday like I always do, I just wanna be able to talk to you more. Well, do you remember how I used to talk to you and use the com at the same time? I remember you don't like it too and thinking of it, I like how you want me to talk to you instead of using the com. You know what, when I think of how happy we are in the past, I can't help but smile to myself :) I know you're still online, so I didn't answer your call just now cause I don't want to talk to a distracted you again though I told you I'm going to sleep but I didn't. Dont be angry that i didnt pick up your call okay. You know i love you :)

Miss

2010-07-19T15:00:00.004+08:00

Going back to Dad's house and stay for the time being later. Much as I don't want to be seperated from Love, there's no choice. I'm so gonna miss cuddling Love to sleep, snatching pillow from him. I'm gonna miss him talking to Little precious, asking her to kick me. I'm gonna miss him disturbing me every morning when he wakes up for work, doing silly stuff making me laugh. I'm really gonna miss Love, miss everything about him alot alot ): I couldn't even sleep last night, was up till this morning 7plus, looking at him sleeping.

Am so gonna look forward to every of his off days. Was so afraid that I couldn't see him till I give birth, but he says will come over during his off days. Its only Monday today, wonder when will his off day be this week...

Fat pig, don't lie to me okay, you know I can't sleep well without you ): Little precious and me will miss you!!!!! Love you, fat pig ^^

Check-up

2010-07-13T14:02:00.005+08:00

Horrible day yesterday. Woke up as early as 8plus cause Love woke up for work. After he left for work, went shower and waited for Love's mom. Everything done, bus to KKH for check-up.

Reached early so waited for my turn. Only got to hear Little precious's heartbeat. Was told that scan will only be on next check-up. Blood test after that. Nurse told me, they'll need to do 2 blood test and one injection because I told the Gynae I had bleeding sometimes back on last month so the injection was to ensure the safety of Little precious. On hearing that I'll be poke by the needle 3 times, I wanted to go home straight. I'm afraid of the needles, you see. But I can't, no choice but to wait for my turn till 1plus.

First blood test was done on left hand, didn't feel any pain. Was told not to eat anything for the next 2 hour and come back for second blood test 2 hour later. The night before I stop consuming food and water when it was 12am cause I was told to do so. So I was on an empty stomach all the while. Waited outside the clinic alone as Love's mom went off for a little while.

Was feeling unwell through out and when Love's mom return, she said I looked pale. Went back at 3plus for my second blood test on my right hand, not really pain though. Next was the injection, I was poke on my left thighs. It was seriously VERY pain. Not the needle that left me in pain but it was the medicine which left me in pain. Couldn't stand the pain that I actually cried :/ I thought after that jab, everything will be fine but hell no! I can't even walk properly. Waited outside the room while Love's mom went and help me collect my medicine cause I was still in pain on and off on my tight. Since I hadn't had any food since the whole day, I felt giddy that I nearly fainted while sitting down. Medicine collected, went to eat something before heading home.

Reached home at 6plus. From morning 10plus, we were at KKH till 5, 6plus. Was damn tired when I reached home, shower and took a nap. Woke up one hour later with a backache and my thighs was still in pain. Love came back early and how bad he is. Laughed at me cause I cried when having the jab ): Played games on Facebook as usual. Told him to help me get the ice cream from the fridge cause my leg still hurts and he got the whole tub of ice cream for me instead of just scooping some -.- So I ended up eating a whole lot of it. Couldn't sleep till 3am plus.

Yesterday there was another guy which was a student from NUH or something in the room when I was having the check-up. Gynae says that student was there to observe. One thing I find it funny is that, why did the Gynae and the student use measuring tape to measure my bump to find out how many weeks I'm at now. Took height and weight yesterday, am 54.4kg. So far, gained 12.4kg. But only grew 1cm -.- I just want my pre-pregnancy weight back! Around two more month plus to go. Hopefully I can shed all the fats!!

Horrible day

2010-07-12T21:48:00.004+08:00

Guess I'll update tomorrow. Woke up from my nap with a backache, can't stand the pain!!! To add on, I still feel pain from the injection on my leg from the noon. How horrible!!!!!

Happy birthday

2010-07-10T19:38:00.006+08:00

Happy 20th birthday to myself.

Didn't celebrate nor go anywhere. Spend the whole day at home alone playing games. Probably not alone, but with Little precious kicking me non-stop. Next year on, I'll have Little precious with me on my birthday every year. Can't wait for her arrival! And of cause, can't wait for her to call me 'Mummy'!!

Funny as it is, I don't feel happy at all today. Browse through my past post and realised how happy I am on last year's today. Last year's today, I celebrated my birthday with my family members, still remember, one cake from bro and another want from sis. And a flower from bro. And not forgeting celebration with Yiting and Co.

Anyway, thanks people for the wishes!

I want to go drinking!!!!!!! CAN I?

28weeks

2010-07-09T02:40:00.003+08:00

Its already 2.40am and I'm still awake. Can't get to sleep cause Little precious kicked me so hard that my tummy hurts ): Shall update when tomorrow or rather later instead. Hopefully I can get to sleep. Bye!!!!!!! (:

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Back to update (:

*3 months ago picture.

Switched off laptop at 3plus last night :/ Still can't get to sleep, was turning here and there.

Woke up at 11plus this morning. Love went to work while I stay in bed till 12plus, got up and wash up. Played games as usual, thinking of what to eat. 2plus went to buy food. Bought mixed vegetable rice, one egg, one otah and 4 pathetic small prawn cause me $5.10. Freaking expensive! All along when I buy food, one meal doesn't exceed $4. Swear I'm not gonna buy from that stall anymore. Played games as usual after eating.

Little precious is 28weeks 1day today. Kicks getting lesser, I don't know why ): But last night, she kicked very hard out of a sudden. Didn't go for my check-up on the 6th. Called and changed it to next Monday. Keeping my fingers crossed that nothing will happen this few days so I can go for my check-up smoothly. And seriously hope that the gynae won't be like that china lady that did the scan for me on my May check-up. Like so unprofessional only. I remembered asking if I could know the gender because she was busy scanning Little precious don't-know-what, no scans to show me the gender and she just said its a girl. Aftermath I asked whats Little precious weight. Cause I heard from friends who are pregnant and are mothers that you can know your baby's weight anytime. True enough, some mommies-to-be even know their baby's weight at 8weeks. Back to topic, I asked about Little precious's weight. Her reply was, "Oh, normal weight. Not big, not small. Normal loh." I was seriously stunned by her answer and thinking, "what the fuck does she mean?" This time round I'm gonna double confirm if its a girl.

One photo of my balloon stomach at 28weeks. 12 more weeks to go! I don't want stretchmarks!!! Though I know its impossible ):

Till here, shall update again soon!

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2010-07-01T15:08:00.010+08:00

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27 weeks

2010-07-01T13:58:00.006+08:00

Little precious is 27 weeks today! One more week, I'll be 7 months pregnant, 3rd trimester . Stretchmarks please don't visit me!!! So far there isn't any stretchmarks on my tummy. Heard from some mummies that for most of them, stretchmarks appear at 3rd trimester . Sometimes I really want to induce Little precious out :/ Thought at 27 weeks now, at times I feel that she's really very heavy. I want back my pre-pregnancy weight!

Saw a blogshop selling babies clothes, some clothes are from GAP. Told Love about it. He says bb so small wear branded clothes, later very fast grow in size then cannot wear already. Haha, also true. So told him wait till Little precious grow bigger then let her wear ^^

Had been craving for durians lately. Last night before sleeping, asked Love if today he come back early, can he buy durians back. Then I remember, he's working till very late today ): But he says will buy milo back cause I finished mine yesterday. He asked how come so fast finish as he bought 2 packet the other time. I finish the two packet of 3 in 1 milo so fast cause I'm drinking Iced milo everyday. Sometimes I can even drink 2 cup or more in a day :/ So no milo for now till Love buy back. As for durians, hopefully he don't work OT tomorrow. He says if tomorrow never work till late, he'll buy durians back ^^

5 more days to check-up.
9 more days to my birthday.
So fast its already July. Hopefully can buy Little precious's stuff soon!!

Till here!

You're the love of my life

2010-06-29T18:14:00.007+08:00

Right, was supposed to meet Bro yesterday at Grandpa's house. He asked to meet at 3plus in the noon when I text him at 12plus. But as I don't want to stay home playing facebook's game, I went shower and went Tampines find younger sis. She was sleeping at home when I reached so open the door and went in wake her up. She was surprise to see me, haha!! Talked about daily life and so on, watched tv till 6plus. Called Bro at 4plus and he says not going to grandpa's so I went with sis. Surprisingly, Grandpa still recognise me after months. Night time Uncle came back from work and cooked dinner, ate there with sis. Went off at 8plus, sis and cousin send me to bus stop. Reached home at 10. Damn tired, bought food back & eat and wait for Love to come back. He bought Mc Flurry back yesterday! ^^ We wanted to watch world cup at 2.30am. But Love fell asleep, while me, I was very tired when it was 1am. So went sleep instead.

Anyway yesterday while with sis talking, I search for my clothes. Found 2 dress which I only wore once, don't know if I can fit with my balloon stomach. I saw the bear bear Love caught for me and was dam sad la. I don't know who took out the bear bear's clothes and just left it on the floor.

This is the bear bear I'm talking about.

All these are the bear bear Love caught for me, not cheap okay. Lucky I bought the 2 bears that Love bought for me during our Flyer ride over earlier on, phew.

Last night I dreamt of Little precious! Can't wait for her arrival! She's a good girl yesterday. Only kicked me a few times when I was out. But the moment I reached home, she started kicking non-stop -.- 1 more week to next check-up, can see her again! Excited! ^^

Till here.

26weeks

2010-06-24T21:09:00.004+08:00

Am always lazy to update but since I'm bored now, I shall update to kill time. Cause there's still 30 minutes more before world cup starts.

Right, when was my last proper update. Probably months ago. Somehow lost interest in blogging as I'm always lazy to do so. On my 11th May post I mention that Little precious started kicking me. I remember on the day Little precious first kicked me, I quarrelled with Love. Sulked and lie down on my side with my back facing him. After a little while, I felt Little precious's kick for the first time! Then she kicked a few times more. The happy me forget about the quarrel with Love. Since then, I can feel Little precious's kick every now and then. Slowly as time pass, her kick became very frequent, especially at night when I'm about to sleep. I read a pregnancy book that says your foetus can hear what you say, like asking her to kick you. So one day I place my hand on my bump and asked Little precious to kick. And she kicked! I was so happy, she heard what I say! Every time Love asked her to kick, she'll kick. This few days, she's so active. Yesterday the whole afternoon, I can feel her kicks and movement. And whenever Love talked to Little precious, it always make me smile. ^^

2 weeks ago, I was looking at my bump and thought, how come my bump don't look like 5 months. Cause I saw some young mommies blog and those who are 5 months, their bump look so much bigger then mine. Today, I looked at my bump and got a shocked. Its much bigger! Look at the different.

This was 24 weeks, 2 days.

And this, 26 weeks.

Last time I used to complain that I'm fat when obviously I'm not. Now when I'm expecting, I'm really gaining weight. Especially on my face and tight. I looked through my pictures before I was expecting, I was really skinny back then. I so much want to be back skinny! How funny when you're not fat at all, you keep thinking that you're fat. That was me, always thinking I'm fat and even want to go on diet back then.

This 2 was way before I was expecting.

This was when I was around 2 months pregnant. Even my arms are fat.

I think I've already hit 50kg -.- All the while since the age of 16, I have been maintaining the weight of 42kg. But pregnancy make me gain so much weight. But for the sake of Little precious, no choice. Endure another 3 months ^^

Till here. Be back soon. And click on the ads on the side. Thanks! ^^

10th month

2010-06-22T23:15:00.005+08:00

I don't know if you'll see this but still,

Happy 10th month ♥

Time flies, we've been together for 10 months. Every moments spent with you since we first met till today, I still remember. Thinking back, from the day you first call me, we'll talk on the phone every single day. Day by day, I'm so used to talking to you everyday. I'm always looking forward to your calls everyday, smiling to myself when you call. I still remember how we used to talk so happily everyday, sometimes with the jokes from my sis. When we first met, I remember I was so anxious waiting with my sis for you. After the first meeting, I find myself falling for you. It was love at first sight. I kept it from you, still talking on the phone everyday as usual. But I know, you knew about it. On August 22th, I couldn't be happier. We're together. Most of our free time are spend on fishing at Bedok jetty. Sometimes I really miss those time fishing at bedok jetty. There, is the first time we held hands, the first time we hugged, the first time we were drenched from head to toe in the heavy rain. Slowly, every of our off days we'll spent it together. If our off days clash, no matter what, no matter how tired you are, you'll find time to accompany me. Coming up to my house and surprise me. Coming over to fetch me from work surprising me. Sending me to work and wait one hour for my break time. How sweet of you. With all those surprises, I'm like the happiest girl. I remember how you'll always ask me to eat and bringing me out to eat. Worrying that I got nothing to eat, worrying that I got no money to eat. You'll scold me if I spend money on cigarette instead of food. All those bear bear you spent so much money on it catching for me, Singapore Flyer, rent car for Cny, I still remember. All this are only part of it from the day we know each other till today. There are much more, written on my private blog.

Despite all those arguments, quarrels and conflicts going on, we still went through it for the past 10 months. At times I may not be a good girlfriend, I may be demanding, I may seems like I don't care, I show attitude, I may not be the perfect girlfriend but still, I love you, with all my heart.

For you.

9th month

2010-05-22T17:37:00.003+08:00

Went for appointment with Love 4 days back. Was late so waited for quite long. The doctor that did the scan for me was a china girl. Showed us baby's hand, leg, kidney, stomach and so on. I asked if I could know the gender already, she just said its a girl. No scanning to show me if its a girl. So, next appointment will request for it, if possible.

As my tummy grow bigger, I had a hard time finding a good position to sleep. Just like last night, couldn't sleep at all. Kept on turning here and there and wake up on and off all the way. Can't sit up for long too, back will get very pain and have to lie down.

Anyway, its the 22nd today which marks our 9th month together.

20 weeks!

2010-05-11T10:04:00.004+08:00

Decided to update my blog since I've nothing to do. Love went to work just now. I'm alone at home, till night time when he return from work. Got up as early as 8plus today. Alone at home with 3 books to read, haha.

Got up late in the afternoon yesterday. No idea what time will Love be back, so stayed home alone the whole day. Ate my lunch and packed the bedroom. Spend I-don't-know how long packing and was sweating after packing. Showered and read books till Love called. Bought dinner back and eat together. Waited for him to shower and sleep. Well, couldn't sleep actually. But don't wanna be distubing Love so I just lie on the bed seeing him sleep (: Till I fall asleep.

One more week to my appointment. Girl or boy? Haha, was hoping for a girl. But doesn't matter I guess? After all its my flesh. Baby started kicking me few days back ^^ Am wondering will Love be able to go with me to my next appointment since he says he doesn't know when will his off day be ): Of cause I hope he's able to go with me. Am always drinking Iced Milo and getting scolded by Love. But what to do, its my fav! Haha!

Pictures of my baby ^^ Lost one of it I think, sad!

Around 2 months & 2 months plus.

Around 3 months & My current tummy at 5 months (:

Till here & I miss Love already ): So many hours till he comes home. Be home early, I miss you!

Jerks!

2010-04-24T23:47:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why certain guys are so afraid of people knowing they have got a girlfriend. For all you know, they might say "oh, she's my friend!" Or worst, they'll say they are single when obviously it isn't true! What do they gain by saying this? Seriously don't get it. People knowing that you're attached=lesser girls like you? People knowing you're attached=you no face? I wonder, does guy have thinking like, 'my girlfriend is ugly! I must not let anyone know she's my girlfriend!' If such guy exist, he is really a jerk. Girls will really be heartbroken to have such boyfriend. If guys are so afraid of people knowing they are attached, why in the first place go into a relationship.

Ps: This post ain't referring to anyone. Just some random thoughts (:

Always be my baby

2010-04-21T01:49:00.008+08:00

10 minutes to 2am. Couldn't get to sleep so came to post instead.

Almost a month since I updated. Finally able to use Love's laptop. Changed blogskin, took 2 hours to change everything. Removed my archive link. Only showing 5 post.

Well, been going fishing with Love this few weeks. So far I only managed to catch one fish ever since I learned fishing, haha. Love seems to like fishing alot. Sometimes we fish overnight with him fishing and me sleeping almost the whole night.

Will be able to know baby's gender on next appointment. Excited ^^ Tummy is showing, have been eating alot thus, gained 5 kg since my pregnancy. Laksa became my fav since my pregnancy.

Don't know what to post, pictures will do (:

Singapore Flyer:

Till here.

I'm 3months pregnant <:

2010-03-22T15:11:00.000+08:00

Happy 7th month! <:

Love accompany me to kk hospital for my appointment today. We can't stop smiling when we saw our baby, developed with little hands and legs. <: some close friends would have know. Yupp, I'm pregnant, currently 3 months.

Love's mom treat me real good. Of cause Love treat me real good too! Telling me to eat more. Sometimes if she worked afternoon shift, she'll get up early and whip up some food for me to eat when I wake up. Appreciate it a lot. At times when I drink cold water, Love will scold me telling me not to take cold water as its not good for our baby. He actually care for this baby (: I remember asking him, 'if one day during midnight I wake you up and say I'm hungry, will you scold me?' He say he won't, haha. My appetitte have been really good. I am hungry easily, I eat a lot too. I gained 4kg, scare the hell out of me! I get to see Love everyday because I'm staying with him ^^

No more drinking of cold water until I give birth, for the sake of baby I have to endure. Cause I want a healthy baby <:

Alright, till here. Update another day.

+

2010-02-12T13:56:00.003+08:00

Almost a month since I updated. Been working. Life's still so so.

Went shopping with Yiting and Sammy on my last off day ^^ I think its the first time we went shopping together. Other than that, didn't went out much. Except meeting Love. But, I haven been seeing him for a week plus ): He's busy working. But he says today will be meeting me :D Hopefully nothing crop up.

Anyway, I'm at the library now. Gonna go see doctor now and come back to the library to read some books, haha.

Friends, cannot be trusted easily. So what its 10 years of friends? Till today, I finally see your true colour. Accusing me of things I didn't do. Only two word to describe you, Hypocrite. Two headed snake.

New year

2010-01-18T22:30:00.003+08:00

Woot~ Its been long since I update.

Friends to lover, lover to friends.

Am at Jaslyn's chalet now. Came for awhile. Love must be thinking that I go out with guys, blah blah blah. Haha! Anyway wont stay till late. There's work tomorrow. Love my current job although I hate some staff at my work place :/

Get to meet Love this few days, am happy of cause ^^ The night before he slept over. Yesterday morning send me to work. He came and fetch me from work at night. Was a surprise. Am really happy when I saw him, hehe. Went eat together, headed home after that. Thank you, Love! Me love you ^^

Elder Sis came back and stay occasionally. Yesterday was worse! She called me at 2plus asking me wait at void deck for Younger Sis to reach. End up I waited for one hour for nothing. She doesn't even knows she did called me.

Gotta go home soon. Else I won't have enough sleep. Am super tireddddd~ Till here then.

Worse~

2009-12-26T04:30:00.006+08:00

My first picture with Julia ^^
Julia, does my blog title seems familiar? Haha!

Currently at Yiting's house. Thanks Sis! Always there for me(:

Christmas eve spent with her & her friends. Thought at first was a little unhappy, but they all managed to make me laugh. Went to her friend's condo to celebrate Barnabas birthday. To 444 after that. Initially wanted to go home catching the last bus but Philene asked me to stay. And I did. Drank a little, one bottle I think. To Philene's house at 3plus. Stayed till 6plus in the morning, went home. First Christmas celebrated with so many friendly people(:

Quarreled with Love just now. After that, old man came out and quarrel with me. Text Yiting, she called me. Told her what happen. I don't know what to do, I cried and cried. Usually I'll feel better after crying and saying out whatever is bothering me. But this time, even after telling Yiting what happen and crying out, I don't feel better. While on the way to Yiting's house, at zebra-crossing, nearly get bang by a cab. But the driver stop in time. Why did the driver even bother to stop and not just continuing driving?!

Been listening to this song over and over again. 对不起，我爱你.
Am I in the fault this 4 months?

♥

2009-12-22T20:19:00.005+08:00

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Am sick so shall skip blogging now. Bye.

Happy Birthdays

2009-12-15T21:16:00.003+08:00

Wow, I just realised that I haven been having a proper post. Seems to lost interest in blogging. Anyway.

Happy Birthday, Love! ^^

Happy belated Birthday Yiting Sis!

And Happy advance Birthday to Sammy!

Yesterday met Love at 9plus at night. Caught Couples Retreat together ^^ After movies, went to 201 eat a little but Love was busy sms-ing dont know who. Wasnt happy about that. Love send me till my house downstair. Wished him Happy Birthday, kissed him and bid goodbye. Talked to Yiting & Claire for a short while before hanging up. But couldnt get to sleep. Noel called, talked to him for almost 2 hour. And me, I was crying all along :/ But ya, thanks so much Noel! Comforting me & giving me advices, me appreciate it alot! (: Off to sleep at 4plus.

Woke up at 11plus this morning. Went get prepared before heading to Pasir ris meet Yiting, Claire & Celeste. I didnt make-up today -.- Over to Sammy's house to celebrate her birthday for her ^^ Home at 4plus.

From morning till now, didnt receive any calls or msges from Love. Am super duper sad laaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

I dont know why, I wasnt happy at all yesterday yet I am faking a smile all alone with you. I think you did notice that I wasnt my own self. But I just brushed it off saying that nothing's wrong. I dont understand why is it that you can spend the WHOLE day(probably not) with your friends on last sunday and the WHOLE afternoon with your friends yesterday but you only spend that 3 hours with me yesterday. Do I deserve this kind of treatment from you? I told you I was contented to have spend that 3 hours with you but actually I dont! I wasnt happy about that at all! I wonder, how long more can I bear with all this. Ever thought of giving up on this relationship but it was just thoughts. I dont know what will happen if I lost you. Because, I love you too much.

^^

2009-12-07T02:12:00.003+08:00

Im meeting Love later on!!! Super happy ^^

I am going swimming with Yiting and co later on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But, I can't get to sleep. HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Miss Love

2009-11-30T21:29:00.004+08:00

Currently at Yiting's house. Waiting for Love to come online, been waiting for like an hour plus or two? Wondering what time he's coming online.. Haven been meeting Love for one week, he's busy working ): Miss him super much.

Met Julia almost everyday. Spend time with her and the usual people I see when meeting her. Friendly people I must say, haha.

I met Jonas like after so many so many months! Very the happy la! ^^

Home, is still the same. Younger sis is getting from bad to worse, steal my stuff! Argh. Shit you man.

I seriously don't know what to update about. Because I AM FURIOUS LA. I don't know what the fuck is Love doing or where the fuck is he although he says he is at home. Yet I am waiting for him to come online like a mad girl. I am going to bang the wall soon.

GOOD BYE.

Backkkkkkkkkkkkk ^^

2009-11-12T04:30:00.004+08:00

I'm back to updateeeeeee ^^
Currently at Yiting's house (:
Been super long since I update, I know.
2 whole months didn't update.
Am back home, but not Sis.

Things between me and Love is fine although sometimes there is conflicts. Get to see him at least once a week, am contented. With him around, I am like always eating. He got me a sandal from NewUrbanMale that I like it alot ^^ 10 more days to 3rd month (: And we're talking on phone every night, Haha.

Things haven been going on well at home. Been crying alot recently. But Love have been by my side all this while.

1 months plus back, went cut hair. Cut bangs. At first was weird, but after awhile got used to it. Now, sick and tired of my bangs already. Cause its long already.

2 photos for now, there's still alot more. Upload another day when I'm free.

Don't know what else to update anymore. Till here.

I Miss Love ):

On hiatus

2009-09-09T01:47:00.000+08:00

Love 22th

Gonna be 2am in 13minutes.
Had been talking to b for an hour plus and still talking.

Anyway, will be on blog hiatus for a period of time.
Won't be online for a period of time.
Will be back when I have the time.
Anything just contact me through phone(:

Takecare people!

Proper update

2009-09-07T18:28:00.004+08:00

Alright, back for a proper update.

Firstly:
Happy belated Birthday Stella Daughter!
Secondly, I don't really remember what exactly happen for the pass few weeks.
So I'll just update whatever I can remember.

Last proper post was on August 24.
From August 24 till probably 3 September, I don't remember where I went or what.

Only can remember:

Dinner with Stephanie at 85.
Dinner with BestFriend and Stephanie at 85.
K box with Sis and BestFriend.

Only can remember this.

4 September the Friday, went down Pasir ris after work.
Met Claire at 230.
Both of us lied to Yiting that we're not going over her house and we went up and surprise her.
Had steamboat together, Sammy stayed only awhile and went off.
Sara and her boyf came.
Till 6plus, clean up wash everything.
To Sammy house take Yiting's wallet and off to pasir ris park.
Some one's birthday but I don't know who.
Stayed there till 11 then went meet Bestfriend at Tampines.
Train to Vivo meet her friend.
Went clubbing, St James, Dragonfly.
Cab over to Boat quay at 1plus 2plus.
Settle down at a pub and drink there.
Had some kinda heart to heart talk with Sharon, a lady working there.
Bestfriend super clever, keep pouring beer for me.
I wasn't a good drinker so I end up getting drunk :/
But! I knew what I was doing okay!
Around 4plus, Bestfriend send me back.
Vomited once in the cab, thrice when I reached my destination.
Slept the moment I reached home.

Saturday woke up at 9plus in the morning, only got a few hours of sleep.
Bath and prepare, train over to b house find him.
Slept at his house till 5plus.
Watch tv till 6plus, train over to bukit panjang with b to meet his mother.
Cab over to Old airport road to have dinner.
Stephanie came over too.
To Bedok jetty find b's brother and brother's gf for fishing.
Super boring :/
Stayed till morning 7plus, went back, b send me back.

Yesterday woke up at 4plus.
Used laptop the whole afternoon.
Met Noel at 8plus for awhile.
10plus bus over to bedok meet b and his bro & bro's girlf.
Went to bedok jetty again.
Accompany b till 2plus 3plus, told him I want to go off already.
He send me out to take cab, but no cab at all.
Went back with him to find his bro.
Stayed till 6plus, b send me back.

Some overdue photos.

Above 2 pics only with fake eyelash and nothing else.

Till here.

Will be back to update some other day.